Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Protected

I wanna feel protected - I have my jacket zipped up tight and I'm not letting anybody in.  I was ready to trust but now I have to go back to the beginning and start all over.  One thing- one tiny little thing- and I'm gone.  


How did this happen? 


I thought I knew my best friends.  We said nothing could ever come between us, and 1 person threw that into a tailspin-launching us down into a oblivion so dark and recessive it is questionable if we could get out even if we tried.  


We'd come crawling in on our hands and knees, you'd be begging for forgiveness and being guilty but it's not your fault.  Once you get that through your head the better - I only wish we could go back to the start and not make the mistakes we made, that we could keep our friends together and not have falling outs every other day. 


Your blank stares scare me to death - and I wish everyday I could know what's going on in that brilliant but shadowed mind of yours.

Now I'm tired and I know you must be too. 
So lets just stop this before we ruin ourselves completely.