Saturday, October 29, 2011

My Life Story

**Please read it - I know it looks long and scary - But I am hoping that reading it is worth your while.**

     Once upon a time in a not so far away land, there lived a little princess.  Her life was full and she was content.  Her family surrounded her and showed her how much they loved her everyday - they were always there when she needed them and when she woke up crying from a nightmare about a scary dragon attacking her castle, every single person in the entire castle came running to her quarters to comfort her and scare the monsters out from under her bed.

     One day she was playing in the castle garden when her oldest brother Prince Patrick came out into the roses where she was play acting a marriage with her dolls.  He quietly asked if her could talk to her for a moment.  She calmly replied yes, as he seated himself on the low wall overlooking the entire kingdom.
       

  He told this little princess that he was leaving the castle and he wouldn't be coming back.  Her little hands went still as she sat trying to comprehend what he had told her.  Then as reality hit the little princess, tears ran gold from her eyes, hitting the earth with the soft splash of a raindrop that cleansed the kingdom in spring. 


     Then as he sat quietly thinking, she looked up at him - eyes brimming with tears and asked him one question, "Why?" she asked.  He thought for a moment and asked her if she remembered the Princess from the Kingdom Alpine...  "Yes-"she said.  "Well, he replied, I am going to be married to her - and her father has offered me rule of his kingdom.  I will come and visit on Christmas, but you need to understand that things aren't ever going to be the same."  She understood of course, and as he walked away she felt her little heart shattering into a million pieces. 

     After the marriage that took place the following month, she watched as he packed his things, placed them in his Chariot and rode off to Kingdom Alpine with his bride.  Things weren't the same after that -  the castle was only half as happy, the sun had went away and the sky wept.  Just when she thought it couldn't get any worse the snow came and covered everything in a blanket of pure, white snow... but that meant CHRISTMAS!!!
 
     She was so happy, and the holidays went great - and she watched as the years flew by.  Her brother had children now, and they were growing so fast.  When she was 8 years old she got baptized and life took on a whole new meaning, she had things to look forward to and she had a comforter and friend that would never leave her if she was honest and true. 

     Little did she know only 4 years later she would need that comforter more than ever before.  She had been very close to one of the kings men's sons, Brandon.  He had been sent out to war for his first battle and on the way home one of the enemies who had survived un-noticed snuck in and killed the slumbering 13 year old child.  When the little princess heard this her heart shattered into more than a million pieces and this time she felt as if she would die from the pain.  But her comforter came and as they proceeded to the warriors graveyard and she watched the ceremony her heart felt oddly at peace and she knew that someday everything would be ok again, afterall he wouldn't want her to be sad.


     Two years later another friend had decided that he had had enough of this life and decided to run away into the sky, and she knew he was never coming back either.  She ran into the garden and sat on the low wall asking why, but got no answer.  After that her life changed dramatically.  She stopped believing in her comforter and felt forsaken.  The next two years had its ups and downs- she met new people and they brought hope and sunshine back into her bleak, forsaken life.  She felt as she had years before as a child, lost but somehow found in that moment. 

     
 


     Then came the day all the family was called into the castle court for a family meeting.  The king sat pale and tired looking in his throne and the queen looked concerned and very tired, dark circles shrouded their eyes as they looked out at the crowd of congregated family and friends patiently waiting to be told why they had been summoned to the court.

     The king slowly stood up and addressed the crowd, " Dear friends- I thank you for coming.  We have news that is not of the joyous variety.  I am in the last stage of kidney failure before death and won't be here much longer.  There is really nothing the court doctors or anyone else can do, so soon I must bid you farewell.  But please stay happy and optomistic.  It would drag me down if I knew you were all in mourning for me."  After those words the little princess felt short of breath, her ears heard no more and her eyes poured tears... here is where the story ends, because we don't know the ending yet.  After these prophecies come to pass, we will inform you of the mourning families progress.  Because there is a light at the end of the tunnel.  And they will be just fine.

                                                                                      

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

My Lifesong Sings


If the words I say and the things I do make you smile then I have not sung in vain tonight.  I want
to sign your memory into this night, and never let you go.  My heart was true, my hands are
raised, with no small sacrifice...

My Lifesong Sings.


Not in life but in reality.  My heart is true and to reach a world in need you have to use all of
your resources. Your hands, feet and your heart. Everybody took everybodies time, I think I see you round the bend...  It seems like our heads are lying - try any poison, get there in the end.  Oh Glory.  It redeems me from the bad things I have done.  Give back.  Everything I promised everyone I'd be... I just AIN'T.  A war of unhappy hearts result.  Don't try any poison and get there in the end. Trust me - thats NOT where you wanna be in 10 years.
As a wise man once said, " Be the change you wish to see in the world".  We do that and we are set for
life.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

You Blow My Mind




You blow my mind... I don't know exactly why, it just happens.
I don't put feelings here-they blossom while my head  is up in SPACE.

I think one of the reasons I love you most is because you love me for who I am and you don't judge me.  If I do something that hits you wrong or offends you, you get over it.  You are there when I need you - (ALL THE TIME), and you help me up when I am down.  You have seen me cry, and have held me while my tears splash dispassionately on the mistake stained pavement.
You always try, for me for you and for everyone around you.  You are selfless, you are always worrying about everyone but yourself, but sometimes babe, you just need to take a breather and worry about yourself for a change.    I know you feel very un-manly (is that even a word) when I worry about you, but be comforted with the fact that if I didn't love you - I wouldn't worry.  The other day when you asked me If I loved you, and I didn't answer right away, it was because I was swept up in a wirl wind of amazing memories we have shared. 
  

But my answer is and always will be yes - even if nothing works out.  After all, we are only in highschool...  No doubt here... You are the best!  And I will love you 'til the end of time!
 
Thanks for being there for me every step of the way, and to the other people in my life who serve as my personal foam pit - THANK YOU!  Much love and affection coming your way! Happy Halloweenie!!


   

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Destiny


Your destiny can be one of two things... it's either good, or it's bad.  It depends on your outlook on life, and how you handle certain situations... it is a meeting of fate, with you as the star.  Front and center.  The mistakes you make and how you handle them will determine your outcome.  Nervous yet?

You've had a good life, but one by one the stresses that make up your life pile up and become more than you can handle... you have bent and bowed until you're not sure if you can take it any longer... You are standing at the top of a 150 floor skyscraper with an abundance of empty space in front of you. The toe of your worn workboot edges closer to the edge - your eyes are glazed as you stand contemplating the consequences of this fall.  Who will comfort your family?  What will happen to everyone and everything you hold dear?  Where will you go after this? 
  


The wind is tugging at the worn fabric clinging to your damp skin.  You can feel yourself falling, but at the last second someone pulls you back... You look backwards and into a vast area of open space and scraper tops - no one is behind you.  You felt that hand grab you and pull you back to the safety of the roof, and you realize that if you would have jumped, your destiny would have had a wrench thrown into the gears.  You have a greater purpose here, you may not have the faintest idea what that may be, but your destiny must be fulfilled.
Today was not your day to die.